A Sip and a Breath

Food is in the house, ya'll.  Food.  I hate grocery shopping, but I went today.  Though I bought all good-for-me foods, they still call out my name.  My main goal is to lose weight in this whole new journey, but ultimately I need to change my eating habits all together.  Even binging on grapes is not a healthy eating habit.  The binge behavior is what is detrimental, and I always rationalized that it was OK because it was grapes or fruit or freeze pops.  But a binge is a binge.  And that behavior has to stop. 

So having food in the house, even healthy food, is dangerous for me. I know its there.  I know I have to eat it or else it goes bad making me throw food in the garbage.  Even though my stomach is stuffed, I want to eat more. 

Another thing that has to stop is the manner in which I eat.  I eat so fast.  I need to slooooooow dooooown.  Seriously.  Today I was in a rush most of the day so I really ate my food quickly today.  I didn't even really taste it.  You are supposed to take a "sip and a breath" in between each bite of food, and let me tell you, that is a challenge for me. 

Previously I had listed distracting activities when I felt a binge coming on, and I did them tonight.  Only I ate a few grapes in between running down the stairs to fold the laundry, and my bowl of fruit was scarfed down while I browsed Facebook.  So I was eating WHILE doing the distracting tasks.  Not so helpful. 

My new rule is no eating at the computer. 

Once again, using this blog has helped to prevent a binge tonight.  My danger zone is almost over, I have laundry to fold, and a bath to take so I think it will be another bingeless night.  I'm learning while documenting my challenges and successes, and I have accountability in this blog.  Even though nobody really reads it, I have taken it very seriously.  So far this has been my most effective tool for accountability and personal awareness.  Go me.