Impatience

Usually when I work like crazy, my healthy food choice ability suffers.  I have been working several days in a row with doubles thrown in for good measure.  Usually that is when I am prone to at work pig outs followed by a before bed bowl of cereal when I get home. 

I'm proud to say that on my double yesterday, I stayed strong, and well, and conquered the day.  The major downfall is that I didn't get any activity other than the usual work activity which can actually add to a lot of steps.

When I got home from work last night, I was a little frazzled, and had to be back this morning for more fun and games on 3MHU.  I wanted a bowl of cereal reallllllly bad.  Not that a bowl of cereal would be horrible, but I really want to break that habit of having that bowl of cereal after work right before I go to bed.  I had a brilliant idea on my ride home:  Have a glass of milk!  So, when I walked in the door, I was super excited to have a few cherries and drink my milk in place of the cereal I so badly wanted, and it satisfied me! 

This is where I start to grow impatient because I have been doing amazingly well for the past 3-4 days now, and in my mind, I should see some results.  So I stepped on the scale only to find I was 2 pounds heavier than a few days ago.  Shit!  Immediately, self defeating thoughts rumble through my brain:  "Nothing is working", "I might as well start binging, none of this is healthy eating crap is working", "I'm gaining weight on good-for-me food when I could be eating chocolate and cookies", etc, etc.  

The bowl of cereal began calling my name once again when I stopped myself.  My rational brain took over and reminded myself that I was weighing myself after just 3 short days, a lot of factors were to be taken into account including the fact that I was weighing myself at night and not in the morning.  I thought I'd turn into bed and see what became of the morning weigh in. 

I weighed myself this morning and found I had LOST ONE POUND!  Its only one pound, but hey, its something!!!  I'll take it.  One pound in 3 days, that is about the perfect healthy weight loss goal, isn't it?  They say like 2 or 3 pounds a week, right?  So, this is good.  This is good. 

My goal for today is to avoid the food in the office.  We are having a Birthday celebration on the day shift for a coworkers Birthday and everybody brings delicious snacks.  I will allow myself to have one, but only one, snack.  That will be dangerous because one usually leads to a ton, but not today.  Today will be one.

Intake from yesterday (on a double shift at work).
Cereal with blueberries
granola bar
yogurt
turkey and cheese sandwich (alfalfa sprouts)
bean and rice burrito on whole wheat tortilla
carrots
grapes
small bite of an unsatisfying cookies (I resisted taking more bites later that night by eating an apple instead!)
apple
cherries
Milk (NO CEREAL)!

I may be impatient, but I need to keep it up.   Not only for weight loss, but for general health and well being. 
When I have more time to blog, I will write about changes/notices I see by just a few days of eating healthy.