Voices

Well...........seems as though I am struggling a bit.  Feeling just a little too discouraged and the quiet voice telling myself that I have done fabulous by losing over 20 pounds is not shouting loud enough.  Instead the voice telling me to eat and eat is growing louder everyday. 

It started with my "day off" yesterday.  That old familiar refrain of "I'll start tomorrow" has started to pop into my head.  Fleeting as it may be, it is there. 

Today started out decently.  Quite well in fact.  Despite a chilly Fall day, I got myself out for 2 separate walks today totalling 100 minutes in length.  Today could have been a day that I got ahead of myself, but instead I used those walks as an excuse.  An excuse to eat.  My Danger Zone hours are in full force.  Tempting me o much that tonight I delved into that unopened bag of potato chips I had way up high in my cupboard for months.  Literally, months. 

Now, cracking open that bag of chips isn't horrible in and of itself.  Its the 3 large bowls I uncontrollably ate.  One right after the other. 

So, discouraged and now disappointed in myself.  But I am not giving up yet.  I have come too far and worked too hard to throw it all away now. 

Tomorrow I will venture to the grocery store.  Stock up on veggies and fruit and prepare for work this weekend.  Time to get back up on that horse.  Starting tomorrow.  No, starting NOW.