Its been a while. A long while. And things are not good. I'm back......back, back, back all the way to square one. So far back, that my square one may be even better than where I am at right now. I haven't weighed myself for quite some time, but I know that I am up to my original weight when I first started blogging, and could possibly be even higher than that.
A recipe of binging, ice cream, and little exercise in combination with the crummiest weather ever has made for packing on the pounds. I'm not happy.
Really
Not
Happy.
Each day I do try (some days I try harder than others), and each day I fail (some days I fail worse than others).
But something happened today that was very similar to what happened when I first started blogging. Not sure what it is or how I can achieve that when I want to tap into it. But it is a burst of motivation. A step in the right direction. A sense of change. A sense that today is the first day. Again.
Again.
This odd feeling came over me and I found myself going for a "run" today. I don't like running, but I had this need to run. It was a starting kind of run. The kind where you walk for a block, run for a block, run, walk, run, walk. Only for 20 minutes. But I did it.
And I'm hoping to do more of it. I really want today to be day #1. I NEED it to be.
You know that old story about the kid who fell through a hole in the sidewalk, and found themself in a deep dark hole? And was lost, and took a long time to get out. Finally out! Then, awhile later, the same darn kid fell down the same darn hole, but this next time the kid got out much faster from the hole....
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You can do hard things. I know it, because you showed me that I can. Let's go for a hike in August!!! Or even a run......
Yeahhhhhhhhhh...so that was my one and only run. I'm just an utter failure. Both at losing weight, and at being the kind of friend to you that you deserve. Even so, a hike would be fantastic! I have been having a yearning for our Zoloft waterfall. Thanks for your kind words....ya made me tear up :)
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