Preparing

My whole life I have felt as though I am standing still while life goes on around me.  I see all of my friends move on, have marriages and families, real jobs (as in Monday-Friday), and just....grow.  Me?  I stay the same.

Right now ALL of my friends are doing something to better themselves.  Most have decided to go back to school and are in college.  The others are bettering themselves by losing weight and getting fit.  Me?  I sit on the couch and eat ice cream while watching old clips on Youtube of Days of our Lives.  While petting cats, of course!

Yes, I do have a lot of control over all of that.  Yes, I too, could go to college.  But I don't wanna.  Nor do I have the motivation or the smarts to do that.  Plus, I am doing JUST FINE doing what I am doing.  I'm leading a good life, happy, and I have what I need.  

Where I am not happy is my weight and body image.  So I have decided to focus on that for bettering MYSELF.  Now that all of my friends with whom I mostly hang out and do things are busy with their work and school schedules, I will have some more down time to focus on "fitness".  Not that time was lacking before, but I certainly cannot fill my extra time with food and television.  CANNOT.  This upcoming week, I intend to join Anytime Fitness (I found out it will only be $9 a month provided I go 12 times a month.....talk about motivation) and am beginning to get mentally prepared to make the very necessary food changes.

I've been here, in this mind set, Many Times Before.  This fight is a huge challenge, and one I do not intend to give up on anytime too soon.  Here is to a better ME.