Ever have one of those days that is filled with self loathing? No matter what you do or how much you try to tell yourself that those thoughts are "irrational", it doesn't seem to make a difference?
Yeah, its one of those days for me.
Perhaps its the gloomy weather. Perhaps its too much time alone. Whatever it is, if I look in the mirror one more time today, I might just have to take a sledge hammer shattering its reflection. Not happy with anything relating to my appearance, but not particularly ambitious enough to make those changes I can make. AKA lazy.
So, instead, I sit with my bowl of ice cream while comparing myself to everyone around me which is the most unproductive thing I could possibly do.
I have had a 2 day binge fest that has included about 6 bowls of ice cream....not an exaggeration.
I'm trying to make small, daily commitments, but have been failing at them. Daily. I do not know how to win this battle. Despite growing more and more discouraged, I do not intend to give up.
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