Just For Today

Oh Boy!  Life has not been great.  Actually "life" has been pretty darn grand; what hasn't been grand is my self control.....again.  Oh, its such a difficult cycle to overcome.  For those of you who have put your mind to healthy eating and/or exercise and have stuck with it, I commend you BIG TIME.  It is the biggest hurdle I have had to tackle, and I am far from conquering it. 

Long story short:

I started eating like crap
I started playing on my cell phone and stopped exercising as frequently as I used to
I started binging on cookies, ice cream, candy, you name it
I found myself in the DQ drive through way too often
I found myself in other fast food drive throughs way too often. 

For someone who never, I repeat, NEVER, ate fast food, I ate more fast food this past summer than I have in MY ENTIRE LIFE.  It was a delicious kind of summer.

But, with all of those bad habits creeping in, I had some health concerns creeping up.  Though probably not directly related to my food choices, I have been shaky and even fainted not long ago as well as having developed a discomfort in my chest.  Not to mention the impact this all has on my mood and mental health.

Yes, I was concerned enough to....ready for it....go to the doctor.

Labs all came back perfect so I have not damaged myself beyond repair.  But, for a moment I was worried that I may have diabetes.  Also, the doctor's office weighs everyone so I got to see my weight for the first time in a Very. Long. Time.

I have crept all the way back up to 150!  That is only 8 pounds down from my highest weight 2 years ago. 

So, once again, I want to do better and feel better.  Back to baby steps.  Today, my goal was to not binge on the Halloween candy that is lurking in the house.  One piece of candy would be allowed.  And one piece of candy I had.  My food intake today was pretty good today overall so I will consider it a success. 

Back to baby steps.

It is so much easier to stick with the healthy eating plan than it is to get back on once I have fallen off.  Back up I go.  Hopefully to stay on this time. 

More weight checks.  More accountability.  More blogging.  Less crappy food.