Deja Vu

I feel like I could just about copy and paste several past blog entries because I have been in this exact place in this exact cycle more than once.  Its Momentum and Motivation.  Its tiny little successes that lead to hopefully bigger and bigger successes.  One successful day like yesterday created enough momentum to carry over to today...another successful day.

So, what does a successful day look like at this stage of the cycle.  It looks like reasonable portions, no binging, and sticking with my goal of having only one piece of Halloween candy.  But it is so much more than that too.  In addition to all of that, is all of the little temptations that popped into my head and popped back out.  For instance, there were the suckers at work that I would have had two days ago.  The package of forbidden fruit snacks staring at me (I almost had just one....but knew it would lead to way more than one).  The opened package of chocolate chips (all of these temptations were at work).  For a brief moment, I considered it, but I knew it would lead down a bad road. 

Don't get me wrong, it is OK to have any and all of these things in moderation, but I am not able to moderate myself at this time so it is crucial for me to "detoxify" as I like to call it.  Get used to resisting all of that so that it once again becomes easy and...well, a habit. 

My personal limit is one piece of Halloween candy and for the past 2 days, I was able to honor that limit.  The most helpful part of this is having a buddy to help encourage, help cheerlead,  and to fully understand the challenges so that when a "bad" day happens, they can relate, listen, and help get a buddy back on track.

I weighed myself today and my home scale says I am 148.  That is still 10 pounds down from 1 1/2 years ago, but 13 pounds up from my lowest weight in the past 1 1/2 years.  I've got work to do.  Two days of momentum is under my belt already.  Lets keep 'er going.