I feel like I could just about copy and paste several past blog entries because I have been in this exact place in this exact cycle more than once. Its Momentum and Motivation. Its tiny little successes that lead to hopefully bigger and bigger successes. One successful day like yesterday created enough momentum to carry over to today...another successful day.
So, what does a successful day look like at this stage of the cycle. It looks like reasonable portions, no binging, and sticking with my goal of having only one piece of Halloween candy. But it is so much more than that too. In addition to all of that, is all of the little temptations that popped into my head and popped back out. For instance, there were the suckers at work that I would have had two days ago. The package of forbidden fruit snacks staring at me (I almost had just one....but knew it would lead to way more than one). The opened package of chocolate chips (all of these temptations were at work). For a brief moment, I considered it, but I knew it would lead down a bad road.
Don't get me wrong, it is OK to have any and all of these things in moderation, but I am not able to moderate myself at this time so it is crucial for me to "detoxify" as I like to call it. Get used to resisting all of that so that it once again becomes easy and...well, a habit.
My personal limit is one piece of Halloween candy and for the past 2 days, I was able to honor that limit. The most helpful part of this is having a buddy to help encourage, help cheerlead, and to fully understand the challenges so that when a "bad" day happens, they can relate, listen, and help get a buddy back on track.
I weighed myself today and my home scale says I am 148. That is still 10 pounds down from 1 1/2 years ago, but 13 pounds up from my lowest weight in the past 1 1/2 years. I've got work to do. Two days of momentum is under my belt already. Lets keep 'er going.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
Just For Today
Oh Boy! Life has not been great. Actually "life" has been pretty darn grand; what hasn't been grand is my self control.....again. Oh, its such a difficult cycle to overcome. For those of you who have put your mind to healthy eating and/or exercise and have stuck with it, I commend you BIG TIME. It is the biggest hurdle I have had to tackle, and I am far from conquering it.
Long story short:
I started eating like crap
I started playing on my cell phone and stopped exercising as frequently as I used to
I started binging on cookies, ice cream, candy, you name it
I found myself in the DQ drive through way too often
I found myself in other fast food drive throughs way too often.
For someone who never, I repeat, NEVER, ate fast food, I ate more fast food this past summer than I have in MY ENTIRE LIFE. It was a delicious kind of summer.
But, with all of those bad habits creeping in, I had some health concerns creeping up. Though probably not directly related to my food choices, I have been shaky and even fainted not long ago as well as having developed a discomfort in my chest. Not to mention the impact this all has on my mood and mental health.
Yes, I was concerned enough to....ready for it....go to the doctor.
Labs all came back perfect so I have not damaged myself beyond repair. But, for a moment I was worried that I may have diabetes. Also, the doctor's office weighs everyone so I got to see my weight for the first time in a Very. Long. Time.
I have crept all the way back up to 150! That is only 8 pounds down from my highest weight 2 years ago.
So, once again, I want to do better and feel better. Back to baby steps. Today, my goal was to not binge on the Halloween candy that is lurking in the house. One piece of candy would be allowed. And one piece of candy I had. My food intake today was pretty good today overall so I will consider it a success.
Back to baby steps.
It is so much easier to stick with the healthy eating plan than it is to get back on once I have fallen off. Back up I go. Hopefully to stay on this time.
More weight checks. More accountability. More blogging. Less crappy food.
Long story short:
I started eating like crap
I started playing on my cell phone and stopped exercising as frequently as I used to
I started binging on cookies, ice cream, candy, you name it
I found myself in the DQ drive through way too often
I found myself in other fast food drive throughs way too often.
For someone who never, I repeat, NEVER, ate fast food, I ate more fast food this past summer than I have in MY ENTIRE LIFE. It was a delicious kind of summer.
But, with all of those bad habits creeping in, I had some health concerns creeping up. Though probably not directly related to my food choices, I have been shaky and even fainted not long ago as well as having developed a discomfort in my chest. Not to mention the impact this all has on my mood and mental health.
Yes, I was concerned enough to....ready for it....go to the doctor.
Labs all came back perfect so I have not damaged myself beyond repair. But, for a moment I was worried that I may have diabetes. Also, the doctor's office weighs everyone so I got to see my weight for the first time in a Very. Long. Time.
I have crept all the way back up to 150! That is only 8 pounds down from my highest weight 2 years ago.
So, once again, I want to do better and feel better. Back to baby steps. Today, my goal was to not binge on the Halloween candy that is lurking in the house. One piece of candy would be allowed. And one piece of candy I had. My food intake today was pretty good today overall so I will consider it a success.
Back to baby steps.
It is so much easier to stick with the healthy eating plan than it is to get back on once I have fallen off. Back up I go. Hopefully to stay on this time.
More weight checks. More accountability. More blogging. Less crappy food.
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