Its been a while. A long while. And things are not good. I'm back......back, back, back all the way to square one. So far back, that my square one may be even better than where I am at right now. I haven't weighed myself for quite some time, but I know that I am up to my original weight when I first started blogging, and could possibly be even higher than that.
A recipe of binging, ice cream, and little exercise in combination with the crummiest weather ever has made for packing on the pounds. I'm not happy.
Really
Not
Happy.
Each day I do try (some days I try harder than others), and each day I fail (some days I fail worse than others).
But something happened today that was very similar to what happened when I first started blogging. Not sure what it is or how I can achieve that when I want to tap into it. But it is a burst of motivation. A step in the right direction. A sense of change. A sense that today is the first day. Again.
Again.
This odd feeling came over me and I found myself going for a "run" today. I don't like running, but I had this need to run. It was a starting kind of run. The kind where you walk for a block, run for a block, run, walk, run, walk. Only for 20 minutes. But I did it.
And I'm hoping to do more of it. I really want today to be day #1. I NEED it to be.
