Celebrations Galore

I had been doing well.  Really well.  True, I needed to up my exercise, but I had the food thing under control.  For just under a month.  Now I am derailed, and I am struggling to get back on track.

I had lost only 2 pounds in the few weeks I had self control which included healthy eating and resisting temptations of all kinds.  Growing a bit discouraged, I continued on with eating salads everyday and avoiding chocolate, cookies, ice cream, you name it.

Tonight I am having a chocolate fit.  Had I not thrown out the Tobelerone candy bar last week, the entire contents would be slowly digesting in my tummy right now.  Back up.  If that Tobelerone candy bar was still in my garbage, I would dig it out right now and devour it.  Sadly, though fortunately, it is at the city dump....a bit too extreme to dig through at the moment. 

Getting derailed is scary because its so hard to get back on track.  Add week long Birthday celebrations with many different friends PLUS family celebrations PLUS Thanksgiving celebrations, and I am officially derailed. 

So derailed that today I succumbed to the gross Swiss Cake Rolls that were staring at me at my Mom's house after I indulged in my 3rd Thanksgiving meal.  Oh but I didn't stop there.....I ate a 600 calorie mini pizza for dinner...and I wasn't even hungry. 

Once again, each day I tell myself that I will get back on track "tomorrow", but that is really hard to do when I already have 3 days of going out to lunch/dinner planned in the next 5 days.  Naturally, I then tell myself "After" those three meals, I will get back on track.  However, in the meantime, I binge.  Its frustrating.  Its delicious.  Its dangerous.

***Sigh***

Surviving Halloween.

I'm hanging in there.  Doing OK.  Committed once again to making this work.  Survived Halloween without a major binge, and held true to my one-a-day candy treat with the exception of Halloween Day when I allowed two candies.  But now all the candy is gone and the temptations have subsided, though not disappeared altogether.  Nor will they ever.  Just today, I turned down 4 different kinds of candy bar treats at work.  Yup, still going.

My food choices and portion sizes still need work, but this is a work in progress.  For today, and for this moment, I am succeeding.